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I've been struggling. The struggle between compromise and what my heart, no, what my Soul is saying. I am in a small band of four. For instrumentals we consist of one talented guitarist and a gifted drummer. Music choices are tight, opinions abundant. We have one consistent criticism and that is we don't do enough sing along songs. You know, the songs that most people would know.
I get it, truly I do.
I love rediscovering my voice. When I was finally given the opportunity to play, it was not only a shock to my friends and family, but a shock to me as well! I had spent my school years in choirs and group vocals. Blend, blend, blend. Sound as one. So when I could let that thought and conditioning go, I awoke to a freedom and a Soul call that was only a barely audible whisper in the static of life. I knew then that what I needed, what I was being called to do, was to feel through music that moved me in some way. Music that resonated with my Soul. The more joy, heartache, and everything in between that I feel with a song, the broader my reach. Above all else, the more healing, love, opening and authenticity is sent forth. Unlike many, I don't sing to hear the sound of my own voice, to be the center of attention, I do it for a purpose. A purpose that is truly incommunicable through words, and I trust that.
It's not that I don't enjoy the hits of my past, I do. I love all music, but I am also keenly aware of what our instrumental situation is, and how often we allow judgment to cloud our vision of how a song can be reworked. I am also aware of the need to please.
So, now I stand on the precipice. Satiate criticism, remain creatively contained, or lead with my heart.
