At Last

Mmmm…how I love the look of that heavy frost that comes along and blankets everything in a shimmer of white. To me it literally speaks magic! Magic is what my drive was the other week. Between the bit of fog, heavy frost and the light snow falling then snaking across the highway it was as if time literally stood still. Here I was seemingly alone on a 2 lane highway with virtually no traffic, encased in varying shades of white, and like a little whisper my past year came into focus.
 I love when that happens!!

Now I was going to go about this in the roundabout way I usually do. Where it may be inspiring but it would allow me not to reveal to much of myself…..however this time it has to be open…so here goes!!

Last December we were blessed with a Blue Moon and everyone was telling me what a good omen that was but, at the time I didn’t really see it that way.
I spent the first 5 months being ridiculed and tossed under a bus by an apparent ‘friend’. I literally rang in the new year separating from my husband….not great.
Over the summer I just did. I ran from this to that just doing and experiencing. Get this done, check this out, be here, go there, be this for this person and that for that one. (don’t get me wrong I had fun!) I spent the entire summer trying to find this new groove.
The last 3 months I have spent sleeping. I have literally been going to bed earlier and on the occasional sleep in days I am actually sleeping in. I have been mentally and emotionally spent.  I have been fighting cold after cold, had a Hepatitis A scare, and have even caught the flu….I don’t get the flu!!
But that was okay because my famous line has always been “I am always Okay”.

Okay so where is this good omen they were all talking about?

Well where to start! Hubby and I rekindled a friendship we thought we’d lost and gained a new perspective of each other and through that,  the home we had imagined for the last 10 years is taking shape before our eyes.
The loss of a 12 year friendship made room for some real friends to step out of the shadows and show me how friends should be and that I don’t have to DO anything! I have gained a personal freedom that I had only dreamed of.
I realized though I am not a “perfect” mom (whatever that is) I am exactly what my kids need, they are what I need, and we grow together!
The 3 months of sleeping was actually 3 months of processing. Bears do that hibernation thing! Every time I turned around the Universe was showing me that! Darn near every event I wanted to attend it so happened I had prior engagements and commitments! There was that constant “you want to go…but not just yet”.  Once I saw that and quit trying to figure out what the heck was going on…Snap there it was! Sometimes I am so gorgeous I can’t stand it!LOL

I realized that I DO need confirmation that I know what I know, I DO need confirmation that I am ready, and I DO need confirmation that I can. That confirmation had to and has to come from me. It was my lack of believing in myself that led to my NOT being READY, WILLING, and ABLE.
And yes the realization that sometimes I do need some help and that is okay. I needed to be able to receive, as well as, I am able to give…..

So now after experiencing the coming together of the Lunar eclipse with a full moon and Winter solstice I am not fearful of the abundance that is coming my way, OUR way. Why?
Quite simply…Faith

Faith in knowing WE are not alone
Faith in knowing WE can trust what comes
Faith in knowing that WE are no longer just OKAY

So to you, to all of us, I thank you.
I thank you for the experiences that have been and will be.
I thank you for the love that has always come.
Most of all I thank you for allowing me to share.
Where ever you may be-come the new year…..we will in some way be-come together…

WE ARE ONE
WE ARE ALL KNOWING
WE ARE ABSOLUTELY, UNEQUIVOCALLY, POSITIVELY RADIANT!!

As always..
with love and gratitude
Ruby

The Sun will rise

As the sun will continue to rise at dawn each morning.....
our spirits will continue to sing
our hearts will continue to speak
our guides will continue to show us the way
our energy will continue to dance
and if we are willing......we will listen

Somewhere over the Rainbow

When I see a rainbow I am left in awe. There is just something so magical about them. So you can imagine my delight to see this little piece of rainbow one moment and to have it burst forth from the clouds and show it’s true brilliance!
Hmmm….. Kind of like us when we let our true selves shine through…..

How many times have you learnt something about a friends past that makes you change your perspective of them? How often after hearing about their hopeful future endeavors have you thought perhaps they have missed the ‘special’ bus! Whether we want to admit it or not we are often times comfortable thinking of our acquaintances and loved ones as how ‘we’ see them with what we ‘know’ of them. Give too much history, future or truth and most would rather walk away from this ‘you just lost your marbles’ you than take the time to readjust their vision.

How much do we really ‘know’ about that person we meet for lunch? If I found out the ‘what’ was, would I too walk the other way? If I found out they wanted to build a ‘Faerie and Gnome Sanctuary’ would I too,  go running in the other direction screaming insanity? If they told me what they really thought would I give them the ‘ole what for’ and start the gossip party line? Or have I felt enough of that in my own life that I would take that extra moment and enjoy what is about to unfold with this wonderful being?

I know I have lost more than a few “friends” in my life when I have begun to allow myself to be me. Though I had always retreated back into the clouds, this time I will revel in the freedom of it all.

We all have our dark clouds, blankets that we try to hide behind…….but behind those clouds, I know, there is magic just waiting to be set free!...

Beyond all that was…. all that will be….Today is still today and I am still, always, me….

Move me

Movement, in any form, is blissful. It allows you to fly above yourself, be yourself, with yourself.

Have you ever looked up and watched moths or butterflies flutter around? It looks so helter skelter especially when there are two of them. This random un-choreographed performance in where it appears that they haven’t a clue what they are doing or where they are going or who is watching. Just fluttering around a center that we can’t see.

It is beautiful.

Most people think of movement in the physical sense of the word, but as we become more aware we find that movement exists on all levels. I also find that when you are making a move to enhance your emotional and spiritual level, stretch your wings, you come across the same obstacles. Most can’t wrap their mind around something that isn’t ‘physically’ tangible, a dance that has no specific steps, a path with an unknown destination. If they can’t ‘see’ it then it mustn’t be……you must have lost your marbles!
When I began to get off the mental couch and stretch and allow the other sides of me to wake up and move…..well let’s just say I spend a lot more of my free time on my own. A little disconcerting at first to be so disregarded and judged….to feel like I should be committed for wanting something other than the Lazy-Boy and Real Housewives of Orange County! Just sit back down and stay in the unconscious! Re-Runs are great!
What I felt at first as a great injustice, and direct attack, has in turn, become a blessing. My ‘feet’ tingle with excitement and this new station, it has no re-runs and the characters are so REAL and multi-dimensional!

Movement on an emotional and spiritual level with no choreography, no right or wrong, no specific destination. Fluttering around an invisible center and enjoying the grace of it in its uncensored state. Flying above myself, being myself, with myself.

Come 'Fly' with me

Perception…..Isn’t it amazing how merely shifting ones perception on any situation, can completely alter the end result of one’s experience?



I was sitting on a rock watching my kids play in the pond, having a nice conversation with my mother-in-law when low and behold a horse fly decides it would like to have a piece of me. After buzzing around me for a bit and looking for the best place in which to make his move, he eventually finds my arm. Holy cow did that hurt! Would you believe he then proceeded to land on my leg looking for seconds!? My first thought was to whack the little fiend make him hurt!!



We all have had a few individuals and experiences that have flitted in and out of our life that have hung around sucking out every ounce of energy they can and, when they have found that the river is no longer flowing their way, they eventually seek the most favourable spot and take a bite. Now whether it is intentional or not we are usually left with a feeling of regret, guilt and a sore spot. “What did I do?” “I should maybe have done…” “Perhaps I should learn to suck it up” or the “I would like to drive a bus over that one!” “Ungrateful little….”



Well you get the idea. We usually either blame ourselves and/or the other person/situation for leaving us feeling alone, sore and vulnerable for another attack on one level or the other. That, my friend, is when it is time to change the perception.



We are never really alone, the hurting won’t last, and we all have that protective layer that keeps us safe. The outer lining of ourselves that lets us let in only what we want. When we open our eyes and are able to see that we have that ability….Wow! What a sense of liberation! Suddenly what we saw as a negative really became a positive. We gain confidence in our own ability to look beyond the hurt and see the lesson, which is always a gift. To fly in our own light and see the bigger picture.



Needless to say I didn’t end his already short existence. My arm didn’t really hurt that bad. It was merely the thought of being caught off guard. So as he wandered around on my leg, I knew I was safe…I had pants!! I made the choice instead, to view him through the lens of my camera and see the truly amazing gift he left me……..Perception.





I thank you all for allowing me this creative outlet and I thank the Universe for allowing me to see things in a different light!

With much gratitude